the texts I typed said
I’m not sorry but
I acknowledge I
overemotional loadbearing
fruit of a tree
watered naively with
object permanence
there there now
there forever
say it so
sometimes you think
you are journaling for an audience but you speak
in second person primarily
so what’s that say about
you
stepping to the brink of past consistencies
the kind that heals in the process
of laborous breathing to survive
but a mile up
inner gears greased by imagined warmth
its disappearing
so happens to remind why one circles back